7:00AM: Breakfast
8:00AM: Hike
11:15AM: Stretch
12:30PM: Lunch
1:45PM: Open Gym
2:30PM: Treading
3:30PM: Pool
4:30PM: Ball Works
5:30PM: Dinner
6:15PM: Increasing Your Income
Today today today. Today I kept entertaining thoughts of going home early. I know that I can't and that I won't but I couldn't stop thinking about it. Breakfast was that Fake Bacon/Salsa/Egg Thingie from before. It was good and filling. My foot and calf wasn't 100% this morning so I opted out of the hike. Paige, the director here was very nice and gave a bunch of us options on other things we could do. I told her how my leg and foot felt and she warned that it seems like it's better because it's warmed up but that I should be careful not to re-strain it. I ended up walking around the neighborhood with Wayne and some other ladies and then heading back to go into the gym until the other hikers came back.
Whenever I started exercising, my foot and leg were giving me pain but after a few minutes after it would 'warm up,' the pain would go away. So I plugged along. I was good though and did about 25 minutes on the recumbent elliptical, 15 minutes on the standard elliptical (a new record for me, I have a mental block against the durned machine) and 20 minutes on the recumbent bike. Afterwards I felt pretty good but was still favoring my right leg a bit to give the left side a break just in case. I was sad that I couldn't continue my couch to 5k but I'm hoping that I'll be close to 100% tomorrow so I can give it another go.
I don't know why but whenever people asked me how my leg and foot were, I felt a bit defensive as if they didn't believe that I was hurting. I know that wasn't the case at all, they were all being nice to me and concerned about how I was. I guess it was because I felt so guilty that I wasn't able to do what I really wanted to do. I felt like I was wimping out. I know they were concerned and I do appreciate that they were, I guess I just felt angry at myself.
So after everyone returned, I tried to participate in the rest of the activities for the day as best as I could. I did stretch, which felt really good on my foot and calf and then ate lunch, which was a yummy french onion soup made of sandwich thin croutons and a somewhat decent Greek style pita sandwich with turkey, feta cheese, olives, artichokes, etc; in it.
I was really proud though that I did treading today. I remembered how great I felt after class last time and though Paige told me to take it easy for the next two days, I really tried my hardest. Once again, once my foot and leg got warmed up I felt better, so I did the first set of 5,4 on the recumbent bike and then moved over to the elliptical to do the final sets of 3,2,1, 2. I gave it my all and once again felt fabulous after the class.
I got into the pool after treading and stayed in the pool until dinner. I skipped my ball works class because the water just felt really good. I let Robyn know that I was going to stay in the pool and then I did the best that I could for the second pool class. I couldn't help but feeling guilty again and like I was wimping out. I did give it my best though I swear!
Dinner was pretty good. We had stuffed chicken breast with spinach and cheese and some wild rice with craisins (picked those suckers out) and carrots. The carrots were too hard on my braces and the wild rice did seem a bit undercooked but the chicken was really yummy. Dessert was a peach cobbler that had a bunch of berries in it. I opted out again. Me no likey warm fruit. I added a bit of salad to my dinner instead.
After dinner, there was a lecture for departing guests and one for those that were remaining on. I was actually jealous of those that were leaving. I wasn't the only one either. 4 weeks is a long long time. There are people who are here for even longer periods of time and that takes some mental dedication, let me tell you. I will be absolutely thrilled when it's my last week. I'm also really sad that a lot of the people that I've grown to like here are leaving this week. :(
I think I'm getting the sniffles right now too. My throat is a bit dry and itchy and my nose is a bit stuffed. That couldn't be helping my mood either. I really want to get out of this funk. I know that this journey that I'm on right now is supposed to be 'me' focused. But 'me' is losing the focus right now and I've got to bring it back. I hope that this Saturday and Sunday I can relax enough and re-center myself. I really need it. Reading other people's blogs from the past makes me wonder if I'm just mentally weak and unable to handle everything as they did. I don't know. Sorry for the depressing post folks. I'll try to get it together and bring the peppy back.
2100 calories burned up until treading and then I took off my hr monitor for the rest of the day.
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Everyone who has been to FR feels like you are feeling! Hang in there, and ask the FR staff for help. It's good that you are writing your feelings down. Tell someone on the staff how you are feeling. They can help.
ReplyDeleteDon't feel guilty about taking it easy, either. Your body is not used to all the extra exercise, so if you need to slow it down or back off, do it. You don't want to injure yourself. There should be NO GUILT in this...NO GUILT, you hear me?!?! ;)
You are NOT weak. You made a fabulous decision to go to FR to better yourself. This is a whole new world for you. You have to cut yourself a break and look at all the positive things you ARE doing. Keep your thoughts positive. Baby steps, girl! You're doing it!
You can do this - think about this as the hump, or climbing to the top of the mountain (which you are no clearly reaching on your hikes ;)). You WILL get there and you WILL be better for it. Remember your Stop Sign hike! :) And don't be surprised if you do get a little illness at this point (sniffles, etc.) Happened to me the first 2 weeks I trained (when I was exercising). It's all part of your body readjusting and it does get run down. The immune systems takes a little dip at your intensity levels - it will beef itself up again. Plus when I get sick it's always around the end of my cycle, so that affects things too.
ReplyDeleteI agree with the previous commenter - don't feel bad about taking care of yourself. Scale back the intensity, but as long as your moving, you're not slacking off, just giving your body a chance to heal. You won't be able to make the 2 weeks more if you're injured, so heal.
Best wishes to you - we're rooting for you! Can't wait to see you when you're done!
Oh, and by the way - this might help with the inspiration:
ReplyDeletehttp://www.precisionnutrition.com/le-winner-2009
You are not alone! ::hugs::
Thanks Anon and also thank you so much Katie. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm going to take both of your words to heart. You're right, I should not feel guilty. This is an experience that I wanted and it's MY experience so how it plays out, is how I should want it to play out.
Also, I really hope that you're right Katie! I really don't want to be injured AND sick!! Thanks so much for the inspiration, I'll keep it close to heart and think about it often. Btw, I hope to see you soon, I miss you!!
hi,
ReplyDeletethis is the time, this is the moment that you can overcome whatever stopping you to go forward before, this is the time to take back what you have lost in the past, this is the time to take charge on whatever you are wishing for. do not let it pass through your fingers. grap this rare opportunity and go forward. you can do it. i know you can do it.
mentally you are strong enough to take it back. no excuses, no pity on your self, as long as your body can take , just go for it. there's only two weeks to go, your goal is right in front of you, do not back down, only
two weeks left, you will be regreted if you don't push your self enough. after two weeks, you will miss this place and the people here who's trying so hard to help to achieve your dreams. so, give all you can, maintain the spirit, we all know that you can do it. and when you go home, we are hoping that you will say that you did your best and you are n'ot regret. be careful with your body condition, if you need a break , just take it. do't feel guilty. you can do it!!!!!